i made a whole long post here about getting back into interactive fiction, but i accidentally reloaded the page (something related to being obsessed with keyboard shortcuts, and the ctrl+t key being close to the ctrl+r key) so that post's gone haha you'll never see it. the bottom line is that it's all a veneer for what's really going on with my life, which is that i'm rotting and i don't know where i'm gonna be in 5 years and i spend all my days distracting myself away from wanting to kill myself, but on the outside i'm literally fine! i'm adjusting to a new workplace and meeting new people! i'm financially stable apart from the whole dangerous domestic situation i have going on! i yearn for so much and i don't want to talk about it because i don't have the means to chase it so i just work my ass off and then go home and watch youtubers/streamers play slay the spire, or watch myself play slay the spire until i die too much and i rage quit. anyway i need to stop working too much and start getting obsessed with actual hobbies, not videogames, so i don't kill myself yeah